"Autism & Memoirs of an Old Maid"…C'hele's Story

April 23, 2008

It is Done.

Filed under: Poetry — C'hele @ 04:14

What a sin.

The day today mirrors the suns blessings.

What a waste.

The weather is taunting both I and the spring season by matching the weather to the temperature in my heart.

Its so damned cold.

Its really best that way you know. A frozen heart produces a frozen mind.

In all honesty, I don’t really need to think right now.

Instead, my heart will do that for me.

I know what I must do for my thoughts are also frozen.

You know what I really need to be concerned about? The fear.

That is the real enemy right now.

In order to defeat it, I’ll not think about it right now for I’ll deal with it tomorrow.

How will I manage it?

I don’t know.

I don’t really care actually.

What I need to focus on, is the ever so silent whispers coming from my heart.

Its been said that the truth sets you free-

I intend on looking beyond all that.

With great hope and resolve, that damnable negative “will” become transmuted into joy once again.

For there is inexpressible beauty to be found when one prefects the art of “aloneness.”

 

 

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2 Comments »

  1. I suppose I need to catch up on your blog…is this what it sounds like?

    If so…then know that my heart wraps a deep blue blanket of “spirit love” around you. I know how tough it is when something doesn’t work out…you are in my thoughts dear C’hele.

    Comment by missholley — April 26, 2008 @ 07:46

  2. Yes, its true. I told Dan last Tuesday, that I am moving out. I basically gave him two options: either he lets me move out peacefully and we resume the boy/girlfriend relationship or its completely over. He has been kind enough to give me some space at my request and has been good enough to let me take my time moving out (in the hopes that I will change my mind thou). Not having that pressure is a relief. So, I have already started packing much to Dan’s dismay.

    I have mixed feelings about doing this. However, I have to admit that my independent nature is steering me the right way. The feeling of being a “guest” in Dan’s home has not changed since I moved in.

    Cest La Vie. I move on.

    I appreciate that blue blanket by the way, big time.

    Hugs! 🙂

    Comment by cheles — April 26, 2008 @ 19:40


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